my ear hurts

my right ear hurts. and by "hurts" i mean "feels like someone keeps jabbing it with an icepick at 10 second intervals for a while". sometimes it'll settle down for 20 minutes or so, but then it's right back to *jab* (wait) *jab* (wait) *jab*.

my god this sucks.

i went to the doctor - it doesn't look like an ear infection in that there's no vertigo or congestion or visible inflamation of the throat or nasal passages and only a very slight inflamation of the right ear. but i have eardrops now which haven't helped at all yet but hopefully will soon because otherwise i may amputate my head to make the pain stop.

dream fragment

i laid down to nap a bit in lieu of amputating my head to make my ear pain stop, and i had a weird dream fragment, where i was wandering around with two former girlfriends (one from a short relationship followed by a very long friendship, the other someone i dated for a couple of years and haven't really talked to since) who were part of the same social circle. i just remember that it was some sort of a reunion thing. there were things going on that made me feel all disquieted, and other things that were okay. but mostly i woke up feeling adrift and on edge.